TRAPED IN THE BOX

If i could reccount get out of the box :Im lost i wanna travel i wanna go soo many places but how do i do

it .I could save money but someone tell me how to do that All i ever know is how to spend burn cash asset i bet when i die i wont even have enough for my funeral as much as i spend i need a mentor .Then sometime i fell like i can be y own mentor ,eventhough deep down i know i couldnt mentor im the women same old person really sometime i dont know who am :most people dont know who they are alot of us are just learning :take your time you have what ever time u have left on the earth to firgure it out .Is what i keep hearing silence bruno My fav cartoon Luca boy did that movie inspire me i get so many messeage from and derive inspiration from any and everywhere ..messeage are things in us we cant not adhere to them listen to that innner messeage that inner cry that inner drive and together we can live

Who Ever Knew

Who ever knew how creative you or i could become The world is so spacious and full of discovery i mean i never thought i would be here doing Just This!! Yes blogging i know there people out there who think like i thought oh i cant everything must be right and i dont have the right tools noone is interrested in me or what i got to say because all of them saying the same thing soo many but what i came to realize is im unique you and so are you : To sum it up difference not Your usual but more soo indivuially beautiful you know how you may encounter a beautiful bird or some kind of exotic animal like a Peacock and it just catches your eye thats what im saying!!! about us most people die copies is what i heard and that true statement will forever remain in my mind :however you dont have to find your self in yourself the world that makes you happy that creates story thats only yours noone can tell it better than you: MY dearest father use to say to me (God gave you to you soo noone can tell your story better than you >:)have you ever felt that you may have i say this intentional dont get offensive: ADHD because your brain is shooting from idea onto the next, honestly my opion is Not a doc so please dont sue or take my word lol thats just your creative spark our minds are perferct foraming pieaces of hardware that cannot store 1 way or idea or one way of life because the mind is constantly creating :Ive been journing on this path for a while not knowing that i would eventfully end up here Thats why i say we are constantly creating :Thats why the title of is who ever knew Ask yourself have you met your who knew

or are you waiting for who knew to meet you

Winter ending

As the year comes to end i think of All that has happen all that will come im sure the world feels this way I mean gosh so much has happen weather directly to you some way form or fashion effected by the so called pandemic A.K.A Miss corono V. relationship parnoia nervosness job unsurety , complete instability welfare dependecy homeing stabilityAn the list goes on .I mean its a crisis and All at the same time there people lending hand if you need a place stay the, landlord allow there teneants to stay for free for a while, welfare recipents and non recipents got extra and emergency stamps there constant need of giving pulling together families , and spending more time waith each other, relationship that were not bonding got together and bonded Many people were extented an opputunity or could try something you didnt think youll ever do people discovered hidden talents you began to notice people more i mean i always have but i noticed people noticed me and each other more indeed corono has been roughand is sad however there is more good that it has to offer and i know some may think thats contradictive but i have listed more good up above than anything .Our focus now and onward must be on the good of a suatuation always because only then can u get the most out of what anything has to come yes the winter ending has come upon us but what good will the next 1 bring look forward and ? anticipate not with a goal but with conviction and intention the next 1 will bring our newness aand prepare us for that lovely freshness blossoms bees and that rich greeness of the hope spring weather brings with all of its hope theres is a since of apprciation for the coldness finally the barerness through all the truthfullness and holiday cheer winter offering us the time to reflect rejivinate and to began excitdly for that new chapter what will come upon you what will your winter ending make you reflect ON ?

Being Me.

Being me how do I began I only I know what it's like no one will and can't ever know ,others see me from their view even some may say they know me ,,,, unlike what they see I"m not what they say speak or tell .Im Hajdra I'm Muslim ,im a daughter I'm a sis ,im a aunt and I'm a wife ,and above all I'm black yes I said it I have big eyes fat lips dark skin and watch wild wild nappy hair ,....yes I do!!!if you think that's bad then you should see my mother wow she has hair like a sheep and my sis has those thighs like Sarah barter ,,,if you haven't noticed so yes do u really know me or do u not see me yes I'm speaking I'm speaking like never before I wondered if what we were given was a blessing or a curse !i sit I listen to inspirational leaders speak of what we must so as a black race or African race or nigga or Nigger whatever you wanna call us I don't even know oour names Do you !?the world have and has done nothing to defend us in fact they say it's what we deserve I'm confused how do you say a baby being torn from his mothers arms or women made to watch her husband be raped or castarted in front of her or have her boyfriend murdered in her arms or babies be fed to alligators as bate please tell if this what I deserve then what did I do to deserve this treatment who's angry with me why are they angry with us with my mother my brother my sister my uncle??????????dear brother ,no matter what they say or show me in a movie or even convince me you are strong I see you and a savior you are your body bleed on on this soil here in America in Africa in Europe all around they have tried to dehumanize you claimed you were lazy lost baby daddies lost ones never will I believe you are a hero in my eyes you fought never did u ever give up on us you are king your dark skin and athletics body ,,,,sister you are my rock even they say that you are a baby machine you freeloading loud vulgar women nappy haired women no no no your worth more than my eyes can see or the world sees you as I know I know your strong black women yes you are you feed babies that' weren't yours and had yours stolen from u you held your man together picked fields of cotton you encourage your man to stay strong you nourishment hands heart full of gold beautiful your skin is the world envys you and I'm so happy to be apart of you because you are me and I'm you Africans we are each other mirrors we will remain reflections of one another when you see me pick me up I too you we must fight for pressent our race I know some say there's only one race and that's human race sciencetically true but people don't see this so we must fight we must ,,,,!,,,,,,,,